This morning, I could hardly get up! I was so sleepy, just like yesterday. I actually had 2 cups of coffee yesterday morning because my eyelids were literally dropping. Carlos from the caffeteria (nice man by the way) even asked me if John, my boss, is back because I got 2 cups (yes, he asked it in French... Il ne parler pas francais). I said no, I'm just sleepy (in English of course). It couldn't be jetlag. I've been here for almost two weeks and I know I didn't experience it.
Anyway, the first thing I saw this morning on Facebook is KZ's prayer. It struck me that I've been sleepy for days because I've been non-stop since I got here! I would come in the office before 8 AM, leave the office at 6-630 PM, go to the mall, walk around or just read a book until 11-12 MN. I guess I'm just not used to having the sun at 930 PM but mainly because for me, having the sun means I still have time to do things. I, for one thing, haven't stopped shopping and looking for autumn and winter clothes since I got here not because I don't have anything interesting to do but because I feel like I don't have enough! My mind is constantly running, worrying about my apartment. As I often say to my colleagues whenever they ask how am I settling in: “I’m not sure, I feel like my life in Geneva hasn’t started yet because I haven’t found an apartment yet”.
So when I read KZ's prayer this morning, I was reminded that yeah, things work pretty fast when you are in your mid-late 20s because you are constantly chasing after the expectations you have listed down for yourself. In my case, I know why I've been running around lately: I've been insisting on meeting the deadlines I set for myself like get an apartment that is less than CHF1,000 in at least 3 weeks upon my arrival, have my autumn and winter wardrobe ready by the end of summer, etc. Don't get me wrong, planning is necessary but stressing out is not! In the end, who brought me in Geneva? God’s plan, His time! So if things are not working the way I planned it to be, then I need to stop, and as they said, and smell the roses. Proverbs 19:21:
Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails.
Anyway, here’s Kz’s beautiful prayer this morning and I hope this inspires you as well no matter what your age is and whatever is making you feel like you are constantly running to meet the expectations you have set for yourself. (Thanks Kz!)
Dear Lord, when I get ahead of You and try to fix myself, slow me down. Help me wait on You with great expectancy, as I look for the harvest in many areas of my life. I'm 25 soon, Lord. I know life goes by quickly, so please slow me down and help me enjoy, more than what this life offers, You especially :)me enjoy, more than what this life offers, You especially :)
